"Two roads diverged in a wood, and I, I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference" - Robert Frost

April 9, 2011

30 days letter challenge

iseng buka blogny mbak Dilla dan mau ikutan juga ah :3


day 1 — your best friend
dearest bestfriends, wherever you are. sorry for all my mistakes, physics or verbal. thanks for being such  great partners, best moodboosters, most comfort shoulders for me to cry on. thankyou for the warmest hugs, for the most cruel advices, for telling me your stories and help you. sorry for not caring about you, for not hugging you when you need it. sorry for not being there when you need me.
just so you know, I love you guys. really. more than you would ever know.
day 2 — your crush
dearest crush, though I haven't met you, maybe somewhere, someday..
do you know how did you get my attention? it's bcs your smile, your kindness, your support, your honesty, patience and all. it's because you see me differently from others, and how you make me feel damn special. it's because you make me safe whenever I'm with you. please be just like that for me. no need to be perfect.
and I hope you're mine and I'm yours, somehow, someday..
day 3 — your parents
dearest parents. mom, sorry for being rude, childish and selfish and all. I just don't know how to get your attention anymore. you're different now. thankyou for being there when I need you, for being such a great mom. I love you, though I know my love isn't as big as yours. don't leave me mom I still need you.
dad, sorry for being like this. situation made me to be. hope you'll be a better person than before, don't forget to give others, bcs it's important so you'll get more than what you've got. hope you're happy with your new family. please always remember me. please fulfill your promise. I'm missing the time when we hang out together, whether it's just the 2 of us or with mom. I love you, though I know your love isn't as big as mine.
I'm missing everything we used to be, mom, dad. hope you two get a wonderful life ya, take care :)
please pray me for I'm gonna be a success person, materially, physically, mentally and spiritually, amin. :)
day 4 — your sibling (or closest relative)
dearest step brother. I haven't met you yet and I hope I'd be ready if someday I meet you. I still don't know if I love you or not bcs it's not as easy as it seems. so I'll just say hello ;)
dearest cousins, please obey my mom. she's too busy to take care of you guys. and I hope you all get a great life in future, amin.
day 5 — your dreams
dear dreams, please be true. I'd be so grateful. cheers :)
day 6 — a stranger
dearest stranger, please don't make a frown face. smile. and be my friend :) but be nice.
day 7 — your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
dear ex-crush (I have no ex boyfriend), just so you know you've left the most wonderful person in the world, who can fulfill your dreams, cheer you up and give you those meaningful memories in vain. hope you'll get a better one :) and you better be serious.
day 8 — your favorite internet friend
dear cyber friend, wish we can meet someday, talking about what we usually talk, and howwe live our lives.*hug* :)
day 9 — someone you wish you could meet
dear you,someone who I wish I could meet. we're maybe in different time and places. so maybe I'd say "hello, how you doin?" :)
day 10 — someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
hey there, wish we can go somewhere and talk as much as I want, if you want to. :)
day 11 — a deceased person you wish you could talk to
first, Opa. hey Opa, how's life in heaven? :) I'm missing you so much. things get hard, really hard sometimes I just can't stand it. but then I remember you, when you asked me 'bout my dreams, and I know I got to reach them. I miss the time we walked together, your big hand held me tight. I miss it when you cried in front of me saying you can't stand it any longer. I miss the time when you gave me those advices, you're the only father I've ever had, Opa :( I love you
second, Umik. Umik, sorry for being rude at those days. I didn't really care about you til you left us. however I miss you, so much. I miss the time you gave me chocolates, and when you kissed me in the middle of the night, I was just realized it's too sweet :') I love you, Umik.
for both of you, please pray for our success, thanks :) ({})
day 12 — the person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
dear you, yeah, you. dunno what to say. hope you get a life, a great one, so you won't bother mine. thanks.
day 13 — someone you wish could forgive you
well, I wish you forgive me, as always. though it won't be the same it's okay. at least you forgive me. cheers :)
day 14 — someone you’ve drifted away from
 sorry for be gone. thanks for everything. hope you get a great life
day 15 — the person you miss the most
I miss youu :( hope someday we'll meet and talk
day 16 — someone that’s not in your state/country
hey you, especially you who live in Europe :3 if someday I go there, would you meet me? would you take me to great places? I hope you would :)
day 17 — someone from your childhood
I miss you. you've changed. though it's good bcs you're a better person now. hope we'll meet someday and talk together as a friend. cheers :)
day 18 — the person that you wish you could be
pleaseremind me to be myself so that I can get rid myself of you to be my role model. and remind me to find my own style, my own personalities. thanks
day 19 — someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
let me get a life please. please pray me for I'll get something better to be pestered, thanks.
day 20 — the one that broke your heart the hardest
thankyou for breaking it, it makes me stronger, you'll see.
day 21 — someone you judged by their first impression
hope you're better than you look like. :)
day 22 — someone you want to give a second chance to
if I give you a second chance, would you be different? be better? be everything I want you to be? it's all up to you. better know the consequences.
day 23 — the last person you kissed
I love you <3<3
day 24 — the person that gave you your favorite memory
thanks for letting me have it.
day 25 — the person you know that is going through the worst of times
be tough. I've been the worse. please know that I'' always be there for you, no matter what. and God leaves you not.
day 26 — the last person you made a pinky promise to
remind me bout my promises, kay?
day 27 — the friendliest person you knew for only one day
thanks for being the kindest person. :)
day 28 — someone that changed your life
thousands of thanks. somehow it made me strong.
day 29 — the person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
hope you won't mad if I tell you what I wanna say to you..
day 30 — your reflection in the mirror 
dear my reflection. would you please be prettier than the original? and if you can't, would you please make everyone else's uglier? I'm having such a serious condition of confident crisis >:))

if only you have the chance, what would you do?

what would you do, if you have a chance to make your dreams come true?
will you throw it up? or better, will you chase your dreams up?

it's all up to you. all you need to think is the consequences if you take or not take it. you have to be ready. be prepared. because what you expect might not as same as the reality itself

people usually waste their chances to chase their dreams just beacuse of fear. well I know you might get afraid of failure, it's no wrong if you wanna try, guys ;)

I'm writing this not just for you but for myself to. bcs sometimes I'm still afraid of choosing what I like and what I don't like, what people forced me to do and what my self want me to do, etc.

"the failure itself is when you try nothing at all."

twitter, April 8th 2011

I posted these tweets last night. dunno, #galau-ing. haha some said they're good. but I just don't know.
so check it out ;)

"Maybe someday I'll write poems, poems about you"

"and maybe someday we'll gonna find our way, reaching what we want"

"and if we meet again, I'd like to say "hello" and smile"

 "and only if I could, I'd randomly pick you as my friend"

"randomly polishing your nails when bedtime comes" oke aku tau ini gapenting

"when we get old, will we still be friends, will we still hang out together, talking about our children and husbands?"

"will we share our problems like we used to? Cry over each other's shoulders? Would you still give me hugs?"

"will we still talking about hot guys in town, though maybe we won't be in the same town anymore?"

"will our life be happy? Will we going to get divorced with our husbands? Only God knows"

"and if I die, would you come to my funeral?"

"would you always pray the best for me, though maybe I don't?"

"would you sing me the lullaby at night when I call you and tell you I can't sleep?"


that's all. 

looklet-ing

I am now looklet-ing, just like what everybody does, haha. #eksis dikit gaada masalah kan? ;;)

here they are, check it out but it's still bad :p



hehe, I really should get tumblr-ed -.-